I suppose the biggest fear when releasing a new magic product is that no one will like it. (Well for me at least. I suppose the real fear of most people is that it won't make any money)

This week I am relieved that the last product I planned to put out with a 3rd party company is out. The grand experiment has concluded and it's failure it has succeeded. I learned a lot from it but as with most lessons... at what cost?

To those who leave negative reviews on magic products: Grow a pair and actually put yer name. No one takes you seriously when you put "anonymous".

It's easy to feel like an outsider sometimes especially in a room where everyone else has known each other for so long.

I feel like I missed the boat when it comes to the age of variety entertainment. So many of the magicians we all know know each other because they have all worked together for so many years.

It feels like a different time when performers don't really "come up" together. Maybe I was just in the wrong state at the wrong time? Who knows.

I find it hard to believe that I have any influence or sway over the way others see or do magic. It just doesn't compute that anyone gives a shit about what I do other than myself.

Fuck you magicians. If it's crap you want then crap you shall have. I will instead keep my secrets to myself and fill my brain until it EXPLODES all over your internets.

It's nice to be appreciated... I bet.

I think I am about done with other people getting recognition for my creativity and getting no credit for it.