The more I see others successes, the more I realize I should hang up my fedora and just lay down and die. I don't have the damage or drive to do anything amazing. I will always be, as the kids say, Mid.This world rewards obsession and without it, one is doomed to just spinning their wheels. Being too "safe" gets you no where and the squeakiest of wheels with parental issues get the grease. 

I am already moving farther and farther away from the magic world and one day it will be a distant memory. After that who knows. Maybe I will just be one of those sad bastards on Twitch playing video games for 5 people.