I wonder if anyone would notice if I just silently dropped out of the magic world entirely...

Well fuck me...

Just got told by a higher up in a venue here that my performances lack polish. This is quite upsetting after 20+ years of performing. Makes one want to just quit and cancel all your upcoming gigs.

Nothing fucks up my day more than waking up to an email that effectively says "You're not good enough". If this was 10 years or so ago I'd be pissed. Now I'm just depressed.

Not so much because he said it but because now I am forced to think they might be right...