A friend of mine has told me a couple times that I should be more like one person or the other. The problem is that those other unnamed people already exist. These kind of comments are taken with a grain of salt when said person who told me this can't make-up their own mind on who THEY are.

The problem is they want to be like other people and so they try to urge others to not be themselves as it were.

I hate magicians sometimes...

I wonder if anyone would notice if I just silently dropped out of the magic world entirely...

Well fuck me...

Just got told by a higher up in a venue here that my performances lack polish. This is quite upsetting after 20+ years of performing. Makes one want to just quit and cancel all your upcoming gigs.

Nothing fucks up my day more than waking up to an email that effectively says "You're not good enough". If this was 10 years or so ago I'd be pissed. Now I'm just depressed.

Not so much because he said it but because now I am forced to think they might be right...

If you do kids parties or the like, you are not one of my peers and I refuse to be judged by you.

I fear I might forever be lost behind the scenes....

It's good to know that even the hobbyist magicians in other countries are shallow jerks.

I suppose the biggest fear when releasing a new magic product is that no one will like it. (Well for me at least. I suppose the real fear of most people is that it won't make any money)

This week I am relieved that the last product I planned to put out with a 3rd party company is out. The grand experiment has concluded and it's failure it has succeeded. I learned a lot from it but as with most lessons... at what cost?